Hey everyone! Yes I'm back from Dubai, missed me?:D Here's chapter 30 for you guys, I hope you enjoy! x
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Its been two weeks since the incident, and Baba still couldn't look at me. I say this all the time, I'm not proud for what I've done. Disappointment and regret filled my guts everyday, If only I could take back everything. Meeting Shoug, and 3aziz.
I wasn't eating well, my hipbones were like knives scraping my skin, my collarbones jumped out you could see them from a mile away, my whole entire body was only skin and bones.
This should be a lesson for me, don't get involved with boys, don't trust two faced b*tches.
I have one more month left of school, I don't know what else to do than sit home and feel miserable. And I'm sure my summer won't be great either.
It was a hot Monday, and everyone knows how Mondays turn out, like crap. Nouf said she would come over to keep my mind off things, but I said it would be best for all of us if I could stay alone for a couple of days.
I made my way downstairs slowly, afraid Baba would be there, but luckily he wasn't. I sank into the soft cushions and opened up the TV. I kept switching channels until M7amad came in.
Great.
He sat as far away from me as possible, fiddling with his iphone. I'm sure he's still pretty mad at me, I mean how could he not be? His own sister has turned into a sl*t.
Yeah well I guess I deserved it, I deserved all of it. It wasn't Shoug or 3aziz, it was me. It's all my fault, everyone hates me. What's the use of trying anymore.
I had to talk to M7amad, it was now or never. We were finally alone.
I turned to face him, "M7amad?"
He didn't answer me. A tear escaped my eye, I brushed it off quickly.
Me: "M7amad?" I repeated with a shaky voice.
He sighed and left the room, and went towards the duwaniya. It was like I was invisible. He couldn't bare to look at me. I felt shame stain my whole entire face.
Seconds later Baba came in with horse equipments in his hands, "Yuba?" I said.
He went upstairs without looking behind his shoulders, again, it was like I was invisible. This only added more misery to my life. The two people in the entire world that I love, cherish and look up to, wont even look at me.
I ran to my room and slammed the door. Sitting on the edge of my bed, I cried. I cried till my vision was blurry, till my head throbbed, and till my eyes were red.
I rested my head on my pillow and opened up my twitter. I saw more tweets from Wahab, he wasn't in school.
Me: Laish mu ray7 elmadresa?
Wahab: I'm still suspended.
Me: Mu gelt 3 days?
Wahab: I got into another fight.
Me: Wya 3aziz?
After 15 minutes, he replied.
Wahab: No.
I got up and stretched, my head ached from all the crying. You know the feeling?
I opened up my drawers and looked for panadol, and finally I found a full pack of extra panadol.
I got out some water from my mini refrigerator and swallowed one pill. I was so bored that I started reading the warnings.
I got out another pill and swallowed it.
And then another one.
Another one, and another one.
Thats when I realized I took 7 pills in total. I started to feel dizzy, and eventually, I was on the floor, passed out.
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Its been two weeks since the incident, and Baba still couldn't look at me. I say this all the time, I'm not proud for what I've done. Disappointment and regret filled my guts everyday, If only I could take back everything. Meeting Shoug, and 3aziz.
I wasn't eating well, my hipbones were like knives scraping my skin, my collarbones jumped out you could see them from a mile away, my whole entire body was only skin and bones.
It's so crazy how people you thought you loved, turned out like this? How can I know who to trust? They basically destroyed my whole year. My grades, my hard work, all gone in a blink of an eye. Not only that, but my relationship with my father, the most important person in my life. If only my mother was here.
I have one more month left of school, I don't know what else to do than sit home and feel miserable. And I'm sure my summer won't be great either.
It was a hot Monday, and everyone knows how Mondays turn out, like crap. Nouf said she would come over to keep my mind off things, but I said it would be best for all of us if I could stay alone for a couple of days.
I made my way downstairs slowly, afraid Baba would be there, but luckily he wasn't. I sank into the soft cushions and opened up the TV. I kept switching channels until M7amad came in.
Great.
He sat as far away from me as possible, fiddling with his iphone. I'm sure he's still pretty mad at me, I mean how could he not be? His own sister has turned into a sl*t.
Yeah well I guess I deserved it, I deserved all of it. It wasn't Shoug or 3aziz, it was me. It's all my fault, everyone hates me. What's the use of trying anymore.
I had to talk to M7amad, it was now or never. We were finally alone.
I turned to face him, "M7amad?"
He didn't answer me. A tear escaped my eye, I brushed it off quickly.
Me: "M7amad?" I repeated with a shaky voice.
He sighed and left the room, and went towards the duwaniya. It was like I was invisible. He couldn't bare to look at me. I felt shame stain my whole entire face.
Seconds later Baba came in with horse equipments in his hands, "Yuba?" I said.
He went upstairs without looking behind his shoulders, again, it was like I was invisible. This only added more misery to my life. The two people in the entire world that I love, cherish and look up to, wont even look at me.
I ran to my room and slammed the door. Sitting on the edge of my bed, I cried. I cried till my vision was blurry, till my head throbbed, and till my eyes were red.
I rested my head on my pillow and opened up my twitter. I saw more tweets from Wahab, he wasn't in school.
Me: Laish mu ray7 elmadresa?
Wahab: I'm still suspended.
Me: Mu gelt 3 days?
Wahab: I got into another fight.
Me: Wya 3aziz?
After 15 minutes, he replied.
Wahab: No.
I got up and stretched, my head ached from all the crying. You know the feeling?
I opened up my drawers and looked for panadol, and finally I found a full pack of extra panadol.
I got out some water from my mini refrigerator and swallowed one pill. I was so bored that I started reading the warnings.
I got out another pill and swallowed it.
And then another one.
Another one, and another one.
Thats when I realized I took 7 pills in total. I started to feel dizzy, and eventually, I was on the floor, passed out.
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